i feel really used =/

i probally dont have a reason but i knew everything would add up to this. why did they not want me there?
and there trying to hide it from me. =/
but i know, it slipped 3 times when i was talking to her, its not just that there was a non-steph party that my mates threw its just kinda addind up. not getting invited places with them, then when i tryto invite them over or ask them to do somthing they have somthing else to do. all the time.

and the ignoring in school mostly, theres just new groups or somthing and i feel really looked down on, like they know everything and have done everything together.

"******* is me favourite"

and then the fact that the person who wrote that were ignoring me for agesss and ages then out of the blue a text from her saying "how was your christmas" and i was like. oh yey! thats odd, but she just wanted to ask about a newyears party on here and if she could go and bring her lad, then she was like kay gotta go.

that shouts lick arse to me, i just wanna know what i did for them to push me away so much.

and yhea no more party in my gaff just bringin a few people over, and if they get to pick and choose who to take then so do i.

No point in bringin people that dont even speak to me anyway...

as soon as i said it wasnt on she hasnt talked to me :L

I tried starting up convos andtexts and asking ppl to come out with me, i made an effort to keep our friendships going, so yhea, Not anymore if yous really wanna be my friend the way it was. i think you's will at leat give some sort of shit, you can read this and brush it off your shoulder if you want... :) doesnt bother me ither way. Coz i gave a shit.

You werent supposed to read that..

Yhea.

I didnt mean it... :(

i was just angry.

I love you. And i mean it [=

Im so glad we fixed this! :D Coz i have that lovely feeling in my tummy again!!!! gah! just wanted to say that.

mmm crimbo. Oh gosh lol its crazy here at home tonight everyone is being a moany cunt. mammy and daddy have been snapping at eachother all day witch is my fault i asked if i could get a burger and then it just turned into a row between them, and then when i said i'd get one myself, and i meant it in a nice way, they got mad at me!!

people fight over the stupidest things. haha a damn burger!

But yhea.

Gosh alcohol. I think ive had enough of that stuff... i think he has had enough of me having that stuff to hahaha. next weekend were just gonna sit here and play fallout and eat munch and watch movies instead of goin and getting hammerd.

btw. stay in college babs!! >< youl only feel that way for a week or two. I'm well over hating school now haha at least for a bit.

day of tomorrow kinda wanna go shopping get some nice clothes to make me feel fabulous this christmas! :)
and to get presents.

im such a weird colour, my hair i mean its yellow/ginger/bonde/brown.

No joke! haaa

but im gonna be plaitnum soon :)

mkai. bye! x