ARGHHH

I just wanted to try somthing new, and whenn i told my dad he just shot it down an says i have to do it on my own, learn all my skills on my own. EVEERYTHING, i just want to have some fun and do some classes in somthing. Urghh. He says you dont need to be thought you do it all yourself coz your never guarenteed youl get what you want out of it, i said whats the point in school or college then??? he was all... Well... thats different, its nottt >=[

He says you dont need certificates in anything to make a living.

ERR

YES YOU DO!!!

Sometimes I feel like just getting into a car and just driving (I cant drive by the way :]) I just want to go somewhere… Anywhere. Just drive. I bet that would be relaxing =] Not give a damn about where you end up!
Last week I did a lot moping. Feeling sorry myself, oh the fool I am. I put myself in this situation. There is no one else to blame. I tried thinking things out… I couldn’t think, I could just see my future as this awful mess. That would be my fault to. My future is a mess the way I’m going about it.
I just need a damn goal in life I need something to work towards I don’t know what I’m going to do. So I’m just kind of floating around. I don’t know where I want to go now, I don’t want to stay here but it looks like im kinda stuck here. But I know if I try real hard I could so do it. But I don’t know what im doing so I cant find the motivation. Urgh its just a big smelly circle. I feel numb again just nothing. I hate that feeling. Next summer im finished that’s not to long away. Where do I go? Am I gonna go to college? =/ Will I even pass my LC? No I don’t think so :’( I know I shouldn’t be so pessimistic but my mind is kinda stuck that way now.

I just need to get out of this god damn place for a while. I feel like I’m going crazy.

HALPP!!!