GIG tomorrow :)
woot cant wait.
orderd new camera woot cant wait!
sleepy goin bed soon. woop cant wait.
Weeeeeeee
am bored.
an hungy
and wantin a smokey.
GLack to yih today nicky.
i'm sure you did great.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Sorry but you'l have to put up with my whining.
Yesterday was good. Today not so good. Back on the cancer sticks. URGH.
So I just opened my eyes to the reality of the situation I am in currently.
FUCK.
I’m seriously doubting things now, I don’t want to believe it but maybe they were right.
Maybe I am being used. I feel used… but ahhh. I don’t want to feel used. Hes not the type but I don’t know. I don’t know if I know. HA.
I think I should just say straight out “take me or leave me and stop dangling me on your stupid unbreakable string!” that’s what it feels like to be honest.
I really need to be slapped in the face really hard. Whyyyyyy would HE like ME. I’m just a silly 16 year old girl. But after all this, for some reason I feel even older than he is.
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Manic winter had a very odd day. I was near the verge of tears we all thought the band was ending. There is actually so much stuff going on with the band at the moment. And were not enjoying it, And that was the point! We have so much fun playing live deffo, I LOVE that part but practice a million times a week in a freezing, wet basement with hair growing out of the walls (literally) gets kinda old. Especially since it’s the same thing every time.
But when were writing our own songs it feels a trillion times better! Making our own sound and when we find something that works really well its hard to wipe the smiles of our faces.
We may not be good enough to play our own stuff to people. But fuck it! We enjoy playing it and it was always about enjoyment for us.
Keep listening and give our originals a chance. Dance your feet of if you like it! And we’ll join you!
Models for god (new song only played once) feels like a step up for us. A proper step up! If your coming to any gigs were playing just listen out for it and let us know what you think! Peeeze! We don’t know what to expect hah.
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On the plus. Ordered a sony a100!!!! YUMMY CAMERA! Old model in the sony alpha range but still.. I cant wait to go clicky click with it hah.
So I just opened my eyes to the reality of the situation I am in currently.
FUCK.
I’m seriously doubting things now, I don’t want to believe it but maybe they were right.
Maybe I am being used. I feel used… but ahhh. I don’t want to feel used. Hes not the type but I don’t know. I don’t know if I know. HA.
I think I should just say straight out “take me or leave me and stop dangling me on your stupid unbreakable string!” that’s what it feels like to be honest.
I really need to be slapped in the face really hard. Whyyyyyy would HE like ME. I’m just a silly 16 year old girl. But after all this, for some reason I feel even older than he is.
---
Manic winter had a very odd day. I was near the verge of tears we all thought the band was ending. There is actually so much stuff going on with the band at the moment. And were not enjoying it, And that was the point! We have so much fun playing live deffo, I LOVE that part but practice a million times a week in a freezing, wet basement with hair growing out of the walls (literally) gets kinda old. Especially since it’s the same thing every time.
But when were writing our own songs it feels a trillion times better! Making our own sound and when we find something that works really well its hard to wipe the smiles of our faces.
We may not be good enough to play our own stuff to people. But fuck it! We enjoy playing it and it was always about enjoyment for us.
Keep listening and give our originals a chance. Dance your feet of if you like it! And we’ll join you!
Models for god (new song only played once) feels like a step up for us. A proper step up! If your coming to any gigs were playing just listen out for it and let us know what you think! Peeeze! We don’t know what to expect hah.
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On the plus. Ordered a sony a100!!!! YUMMY CAMERA! Old model in the sony alpha range but still.. I cant wait to go clicky click with it hah.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Yadda yadda
Mmmm. I am loving life quite lots at the moment. Schools good! Even though ive missed so many English classes the teacher counts all the classes ive missed to the whole class. Haha
Bitch >=[
Speaking of bitches… I think I’ve sorted an actually nonexistent relation ship. Yenno just the odd hello or whatever or the odd evil look. Right that makes no sense. But, Well this girl, not a friend more of an acquaintance… I just did not know if she liked me or not! And the only reason it bothered me was because well she liked me one day then just didn’t. I’m really not the type of person to not get along with someone. I try my best to get along with people no matter what they have done.
Well if they do something to me then I have a reason but I still try to forgive and forget as much as possible. I think that’s one of the good characteristics I have embedded in my 5 foot something body. I’m surprised there’s room for more. Ha!
But yea. I think our acquaintance could possibly evolve into a friendship. I hope so. Because I generally like the girl.
I thought she was playing games with me when she started hanging of him… but no. she just get’s along
with him. Nothing to be jealous about!
--
And well. I had a fucking great weekend! Me and him sorted everything out. But I love the cunt! And I don’t care anymore. There’s still something there. We both know it.
We have both said it.
I actually love that boy more than I did now. We just had the greatest weekend since well. Ever. We laughed so hard and I just cant picture things without him.
It was to good to be true. I mean he made a mistake.. But so did I. so I forgave him again! And now its just. Ah. I don’t know.
I love him. LOTS.
I may only be 16 but I still have a heart and plenty of room in there for him.
Il est autre chose.
Never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about
Bitch >=[
Speaking of bitches… I think I’ve sorted an actually nonexistent relation ship. Yenno just the odd hello or whatever or the odd evil look. Right that makes no sense. But, Well this girl, not a friend more of an acquaintance… I just did not know if she liked me or not! And the only reason it bothered me was because well she liked me one day then just didn’t. I’m really not the type of person to not get along with someone. I try my best to get along with people no matter what they have done.
Well if they do something to me then I have a reason but I still try to forgive and forget as much as possible. I think that’s one of the good characteristics I have embedded in my 5 foot something body. I’m surprised there’s room for more. Ha!
But yea. I think our acquaintance could possibly evolve into a friendship. I hope so. Because I generally like the girl.
I thought she was playing games with me when she started hanging of him… but no. she just get’s along
with him. Nothing to be jealous about!
--
And well. I had a fucking great weekend! Me and him sorted everything out. But I love the cunt! And I don’t care anymore. There’s still something there. We both know it.
We have both said it.
I actually love that boy more than I did now. We just had the greatest weekend since well. Ever. We laughed so hard and I just cant picture things without him.
It was to good to be true. I mean he made a mistake.. But so did I. so I forgave him again! And now its just. Ah. I don’t know.
I love him. LOTS.
I may only be 16 but I still have a heart and plenty of room in there for him.
Il est autre chose.
Never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about
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