Sorry but you'l have to put up with my whining.

Yesterday was good. Today not so good. Back on the cancer sticks. URGH.

So I just opened my eyes to the reality of the situation I am in currently.

FUCK.

I’m seriously doubting things now, I don’t want to believe it but maybe they were right.

Maybe I am being used. I feel used… but ahhh. I don’t want to feel used. Hes not the type but I don’t know. I don’t know if I know. HA.

I think I should just say straight out “take me or leave me and stop dangling me on your stupid unbreakable string!” that’s what it feels like to be honest.

I really need to be slapped in the face really hard. Whyyyyyy would HE like ME. I’m just a silly 16 year old girl. But after all this, for some reason I feel even older than he is.
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Manic winter had a very odd day. I was near the verge of tears we all thought the band was ending. There is actually so much stuff going on with the band at the moment. And were not enjoying it, And that was the point! We have so much fun playing live deffo, I LOVE that part but practice a million times a week in a freezing, wet basement with hair growing out of the walls (literally) gets kinda old. Especially since it’s the same thing every time.

But when were writing our own songs it feels a trillion times better! Making our own sound and when we find something that works really well its hard to wipe the smiles of our faces.

We may not be good enough to play our own stuff to people. But fuck it! We enjoy playing it and it was always about enjoyment for us.

Keep listening and give our originals a chance. Dance your feet of if you like it! And we’ll join you!

Models for god (new song only played once) feels like a step up for us. A proper step up! If your coming to any gigs were playing just listen out for it and let us know what you think! Peeeze! We don’t know what to expect hah.
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On the plus. Ordered a sony a100!!!! YUMMY CAMERA! Old model in the sony alpha range but still.. I cant wait to go clicky click with it hah.