Isnt it funny.

I actually do have something to write about haha.

Well yes I’m of school again coz I’m a lazy bum. Very lazy bum. When it comes to school of course. But with other things I enjoy it’s different I just wish they could see that. -_-

Anyways it’s funny, just a while ago my dreams and ambitions where far to big for this place but now… well I just don’t know. I think reality kind of slapped me in the face. If I cant get my ass out of bed to go to school then I defiantly cant do what I want to do. And its huge trust me.

Call me pessimistic. I am quite pessimistic these days. Hah. But I suppose id be happy just to stay here forever Dundalk, Dublin whatever not in tallanstown… its to… clean.

I’m quite happy scraping through the week being miserable thinking about school and go to school but its really not that bad! At all. I don’t know why I’m such a moany bitch about it haha. I guess it kind of makes me feel stupid and it feels like im being degraded. But yes anyway im quite happy being miserable in school during the week then going out on the weekends and getting shit faced =]

I LOVE WEEKENDS.

But yes I don’t expect to much of me in the future. Just average I may not want to be an “average” human being but that’s what I am doomed to. Haha. I make it sound like a terrible life. It’s not!

But yes. Dundalk tonight. Staying in Nicks [= my lovely sweetie nick. ]=

Its very very fucked up at the moment. Were broken up! But its just not right… I may only be 16... But I love him to bits.
And its been a while since I woke up and thought GOD I LOVE THAT BOY SO MUCH. That happened this morning… and I felt great [=

Since we broke up I used to hate waking up and thinking “oh… nick… Damn…”

What’s happening?



Speaking of dreams I had a few crazy ones the past week.

There was one and I predicted the future. I predicted the world coming to a crazy end. Citizens where going crazy and the whole world just collapsed not because of natural disasters or a meteorite or an alien invasion. Just because the world wasn’t working right haha. I cant explain it. And then I seen a train crash through my house.

Then when I stopped predicting mam started talking to me then I just knew something bad was going to happen and I grabbed her and pushed her just as a train came through the window. HHA this was all a dream remember lol. But then I ran upstairs and there was a train in my fucking house…. Dad wasn’t there. This bit actually scared the shit of me!!! We were looking for ages but we couldn’t find him ]= then he came crawling out of the train he was okay yey lol.
Then we hopped on an empty bus and started driving. Wonder were we were going?

IT WAS a crazy dream. I do have really odd dreams. Ugh to realistic for my liking.

Then I had a dream I was scuba diving with some fit lad… LOL. That sounds more like a dream the one above sounds like a tv show FFS.

But yhea. I was quite relived when I woke up but I was thinking “is the world gonna collapse? Will I have to save my family? Ahh” lmao.

My brain is weird. I don’t like it. If im In a weird mood going to bed I wont have pleasant dreams… well that’s what I think so I have to stay up and watch some funny tv or something then go to sleep. I’m a freak. Iv’e only done it lately.

This is a huge update.

Haha.

But anyways…